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God used this song in powerful ways —

By Sydney Hill

I had an immediate connection with the song “Here Again” by Elevation Worship, but I’ve been astounded by three powerful ways the Lord used it in my life.

In June 2019, I took my first trip to San Angelo, Texas, where I helped with a sports camp for kids. One morning I found myself feeling terribly sick. I am not exaggerating when I tell you that I rarely get sick. I had to sit out that day and talk to a doctor online. By the grace of God, I found out that I wasn't seriously sick, and that simple medication would make me feel better in no time.

 

I was sad to have missed out on a day with the kids I was supposed to be loving, but I was prepared to find ways to do something despite my sickness. Singing is a typical way I connect with the Father, but my voice temporarily left me when I tried to sing “Here Again.” In that low moment I found a note I made to myself earlier that week on my phone. It said, "… with or without a voice, may I sing Your praises."

 

It was a very humbling moment. I am extremely by-the-books and I like to have a plan. I tend to struggle when things don't go the way I plan, but the Lord taught me that week that we as Christians shouldn't expect things will go the way we want them to. We should accept things as they are and embrace His hand in it.

 

I was healed and able to enjoy the rest of the week despite my slight setback.

 

The following week, I took a trip to Ozark Christian College in Joplin, Missouri, where I attended the Creative Arts Academy. This was a trip I spontaneously signed up for only knowing one other person. I was already exhausted from the past week and, frankly, nervous to attend the camp.

 

I had received an email announcing try-outs for a vocal solo for the final program at the end of the week, and I was not enthusiastic. My parents and family encouraged me to try out and within an hour before the audition, I caved in. I stepped outside of my comfort zone and tried out for vocals … I'm so glad I did.

 

I couldn’t help but smile when I saw my name posted next to lead harmony for “Here Again.” How ironic was it that God would line up THIS song?!

 

But then God wanted me to take a backroad for this journey.

 

In the middle of the week, my vision started to go out in my right eye. I took out my contacts only to experience more blurring and inconsolable burning. Not to be a baby or anything, but it was quite possibly the worst pain I have ever felt in my life. I couldn't help but think, "Oh wooow, I really DON’T want to go to hell because I'm feeling it directly in my eye!"

 

God was there, though, and provided family members to take me to the ER. It was there that it was discovered that I had peeled off the top layer of my cornea when my contact lens adhered to my eye!

 

Medicine and a good night’s sleep helped me, but I was nervous to perform my solo without my contacts or glasses (Yes, I left them at home.) It took a lot of bravery, but I agreed to perform. I didn’t realize I had the words to “Here Again” memorized and the performance went well. The verse that says “In my weakness Your glory appears" resonated with me after that moment on stage.

 

Things once again did not go the way I had planned but I attempted to find ways to rejoice in His plan. I found that because I was led on His backroad, the view from the mountain meant so much more to me. I had to fight to get there, and although the back way had not always been pretty, it was beautiful because of what He formed it into.

 

I was humbled again.

 

Summer was almost over and I attended CIY MOVE at the University of Arlington (TX) with my youth group from church. I come to MOVE knowing that God always does big things through the fellowship, the friendships, the speakers, the worship and even the people serving us food. And He did not disappoint.

 

The speaker had just discussed five separate “caves” we can find ourselves in: Anger, Fear, Apathy, Loneliness and Shame. I've found myself in all of these caves, but did not have something that specifically resonated for me. I may not have had something big I was wrestling with or hurt weighing me down, but it was the very presence of God that I saw, heard and felt that drew me to this moment.

 

I watched hundreds of students ask leaders or friends to pray with them in these caves. I watched those I did not expect make such a bold move take these actions. I saw full submission and vulnerability, and there is something about that which I find indescribably beautiful. I saw people I loved break down and cry. I saw people I loved praying for each other and conquering these caves together. I saw someone who claimed to be atheist bow his head and pray.

 

Just as I found myself in a messy pile of tears, the band began to play “Here Again.” Those words were a prayer I sang louder than I've ever sang before, and I actually felt the Lord in that place! I am remarkably humbled by this reminder that I am not enough unless HE comes. I can't even count how many tears I shed that night or how many hugs I gave or received. That wasn't something I planned or saw coming, but it was beautiful. That week, I felt closer to God, my church family and His Word.

 

Lyrics to “Here Again” by Elevation Worship

Can't go back to the beginning
Can't control what tomorrow will bring
But I know here in the middle
Is the place where You promise to be

 

I'm not enough unless You come
Will You meet me here again
'Cause all I want is all You are
Will You meet me here again

 

As I walk now through the valley
Let your love rise above every fear
Like the sun shaping the shadow
In my weakness Your glory appears

 

I'm not enough unless You come
Will You meet me here again
'Cause all I want is all You are
Will You meet me here again
I'm not enough unless You come
Will You meet me here again
'Cause all I want is all You are
Will You meet me here again

 

Not for a minute
Was I forsaken
The Lord is in this place
The Lord is in this place
Come Holy Spirit
Dry bones awaken
The Lord is in this place
The Lord is in this place
Not for a minute
Was I forsaken
The Lord is in this place
The Lord is in this place
Come Holy Spirit
Dry bones awaken
The Lord is in this place
The Lord is in this place

 

I'm not enough unless You come
Will You meet me here again
'Cause all I want is all You are
Will You meet me here again
I'm not enough unless You come
Will You meet me here again

 

'Cause all I want is all You are
Will You meet me here again.

 

08_05_Sydney.jpgSydney Hill is a high school student in Houston, Texas, and the granddaughter of former CIY President Andy Hansen. She maintains the blog “Beauty Makes a Sound.” To read more, click here.